Roadblocks

It is seeming that I am running into all kinds of roadblocks to bring Joshua home. Found out that because we bring home too much money, we wouldn't be eligible for federal aid. Then when I contacted the agency that did our home study, was told that Haiti is closed to adoptions and we would need a full new home study, at a cost $2800 vs the update. Wondering if this is the sign that we aren't meant to be his family? I still believe a way will be found to bring him home, but right now I have my doubts. I searched the Internet to see if anyone had been asked about their experience in adopting a child with CP, and was surprised in what some of the responses were. Some were negative as to why anyone would want to adopt a child with this disability? I am doing self deep searching to make sure the reason is correct for my reasoning to bring him home, and not something else. Praying that I can see the correct direction soon so we can move in the correct direction