Gotta love your boss

Today I had my annual performance evaluation. Never mind that I am on vacation and that I had to drive 1.5 hours to attend it. Apparently I am doing a good job, having improved from last year, not enough to raise my score/grade. I am so very tired of doing what is expected--even going above and beyond, only to be beat up on my performance. I have over 34 years with this company, never had a problem till this anal controlling person was put as our district head. He has it out for 8 of us for some reason. My store makes money, I stay on top of programs, I score high in employee engagement. I am so pissed, I have talked to that friend that I know and she has a part time position--15/20 hours at $16/hour. I am taking it, getting my foot into hotel management, then leaving when the time is right. Going full time with them. Or maybe I will contact kwiktrip also, like most of our employees that are fed up with the way our company is going. Looking into getting our windows replaced. Have someone coming tomorrow and on the 17th for estimates. Can't wait to see what that cost is going to be. We have 15 windows that we would need to replace. Will update this weekend.

Wish I knew how

I wish I knew how to find a way to bring another child to our family. We are trying to get rid of credit card debt by taking out a loan against my profit sharing account after paying down the debt thru a debt management company the last 3 years. We still aren't where I would like to see us financially, but we are improving. Now Tyler has started college and since we didn't set up any accounts we are having to take out loans to help with his schooling. Ugh. It just seems never ending. I know we have the hearts to bring him into our lives, but the finances still scare me. How can I find a way to fix that? We have changed so much already in our lives. You see other families that seem to have less, with more debt be able to feel comfortable bringing in other children, children with or without special needs. I pray nightly for a sign that this is meant to be, butas of yet no sign has appeared. I have even asked a friend about doing part-time work for them to try and raise money. Please help me see that yes we are meant to be Joshua's family or not.